An investigation for jesters
and saints,
this sadness of a man,
this separated ghost,
this disconnected stare
in brittle glass,
unrecognized reflection
of nothing known
in this frozen liquid sand,
pinned to a drawing board,
crucified
in clouds of calendars
and an ambiance
of echoing silence.
Ghost of a ghost
exiled from connection
to all familiar senses,
wandering lost
in a papier-mache world
filled with mute puppets
and the creeping feet of madness
drifting on autumn leaves,
the dumb changing of seasons
and the cold winds to come.
There was a voice once
filling days and nights,
sweet ectoplasms of love
buried now in the heavy quiet
of collapsing bridges
and the broken entities of light.
There was a precious presence
partnering in mirrors,
a twinning wholeness
held gently in his hands,
now crumbling into dust
and blown on September winds
across a face
that is a stranger to itself.
There was music and whispers
tongued and lipped
across vibrating cells,
songs of angels and dreamers
gagged now and gone,
leaving a face alone
to face itself,
a double haunting.
ex silentio.
self-portrait drawing and poem by clinock.
I don’t even know where to start with this! Amazing and powerful– A pleasant surprise to discover something so completely thought provoking this morning!
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Thanks J.E. Hope not too mentally exhausting to begin your day. Have a good one!
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It’s very sad but the creative energy you pour into the words and image redeem if from lostness. It’s such an authentic expression from self I feel I don’t want to comment except to say I hear you. The good thing about mirrors is that we can look and look again and find new images day to day. Thank you John.
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Thank you for your positive words Steven and for your hearing…
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P.S. I love this image – it’s like a coin or a plate from ancient Greece or Sparta or Troy. Perhaps the experience described within the words is metaphorical.
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You always offer me new ways to look at my art, thank you…and yes, perhaps it is but on the other hand…
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A fine membrane between ecstasy and pain
Who listens to the anima
as she sings her enchanting song?
A timpani of aural cadence
along the underworld canal
Who listens to the anima
continually sows the fertile seeds of desire
as they look through
the many mirrors
in her kaleidoscopic turning
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Anima, siren, muse
enchanting, elusive
as the song and dance
unfolds
in smoke
and mirrors
to listen is to be lost
and found
and lost again,
to not listen is to become
dry husk
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What J. E. Lattimer says…and so very.
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Much appreciated Bonnie, thank you…
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John your self portrait I can “feel” immediately…….deep and intense! It communicates without words. Now your poem……is another matter. I keep getting pulled up to digest your descriptive words.i.e. “frozen liquid sand” or “heavy quiet” etc. etc. Each requires, no demands engagement. Thought does not solve the imagery. It requires contemplation. To me these are like stop lights along your journey. They provide a tempory pause to refresh and attempt to understand where you are on this amazing journey. We are continually struggling to understand and glimpes the depth of your soul. If I am way of the mark please forgive me…..
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My dear friend, you are never, ever “way off the mark”, quite the contrary. You always look and see and read with the deepest caring and perception. That you choose to give your time and energy sharing my journey means so very much and I always hope that what I share is meaningful in some way to others. Through replies like yours to posts such as this I come to see myself and my expressions with more clarity and know I am so much more than a ghost, because I am heard and understood. Thank you Robert…
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Thanks John and all of your posts are meaningful and enlighting to everyone I’m sure….plus your generous spirit spreads wide and far!
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poem – one of your best
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Thank you very much Carl…
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I’ve been reading your “Ghost” series this morning, starting from earlier in September. They are strong and so compelling, but then this one! Oh my, John. I’m so powerfully moved. You’ve used such carefully (and perfectly) constructed words and phrases to deliver such a hard-hitting emotional punch–both beautiful and mournful. Your face in the mirror looks both lost and at the same time deeply aware–the separated ghost. I agree with Carl!
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Thank you for spending time with my ghosts Debra, not an easy read I know. I sometimes hesitate to share such personal journeys but then understand this sharing is mostly why I blog. I trust my readers and hope in someway what I post is of value to others. I know it helps me to put it all out there and receive such caring responses as yours…
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Hi John, your ghosts have accompanied me in bad hours when I could not read; your poems now give me time to think as I ponder about every line and see meanings emerge. Sad and cruel as life sometimes seems, all this is strangely beautiful. x
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Yes, so strangely beautiful…If my ghosts were able to be with you in the bad hours, without the hauntings, they have found a true purpose. It is so very life confirming to see you on-line again Ina. I know it is a hiatus only. We breathe in and we breathe out and between breaths is silence. My heart and spirit are with you and your loved ones…
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skulls
haunting
expectations
scratching away
same old questions
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